My struggles with breastfeeding

I gave birth just over a month ago and one of the things I was looking forward to as a new mom, was to breastfeed. I was quite disappointed when just after giving birth, my child struggled to latch therefore making breastfeeding difficult.

About 2 weeks ago, she started latching properly and I was over the moon with happiness, until I realised how painful this process is. For the longest time, I thought something was wrong with me because how am I struggling with the most natural thing to do? Every time I tried to nurse my baby, she flies off my breast screaming. This usually leaves me feeling like a failure, overwhelmed and alone.

Through talking to other moms, I’ve come to realize that even though breastfeeding is natural, breastfeeding isn’t always automatic.

I’ve listed some of the things I’ve been struggling with and I hope it will get better

  • Latching, my baby struggles to latch and in her struggles, this causes so much pain for me, it’s unbearable.
  • Cracked nipples, I don’t even know where to start. My nipples are always sore and cracked. I do pump quite often so I don’t know if that’s the cause but it’s another unbearable pain.
  • Not producing enough milk, I’ve heard that your body produces the right amount of milk the baby needs, but I feel like that’s not the case with me. When I pump, I can barely get 50mls of milk (on both breasts). I’ve seen what other mothers can produce when pumping and mine aren’t even close. Also, when my baby breastfeeds, she never gets full. Immediately I have to give her formula after feeding via the breast. I don’t think that’s normal. Each time I make her bottle, I get upset with myself. I shouldn’t have to do this. I shouldn’t have to supplement. I should be able to give him what she needs. But hey, what can I do.

Honestly, I am close to giving up the breastfeeding process and I am ready to go fully with formula because I feel like I’ve tortured myself enough.

If you’re like me and struggling but want to continue, here’s an article that might help. A few months ago, I spoke to Huggies® expert, Lynn Bluff, registered nurse, midwife and childbirth educator. Hopefully, her tips will help you.

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