4 March 2020, I welcomed my second baby girl, Milani Nova
I already had a daughter, Alwande, I had her when I was 18.
A week after giving birth, I had to leave for school, so I never got to bond
with my eldest child, I was actually never a mother because my own mother took
over that responsibly for me as I was too “young” for it.
12 years later, I’ve been blessed with my second child and
this time I get to do thing “right”. Though it pains me that my eldest child
won’t ever know what it feels like to have me as a present mother from a young
age, unlike her new sister. The guilt I feel for being so in love with Milani overwhelms
me because Alwande didn’t get the same.
I cannot express how happy I am about the birth of my second
daughter, I cannot stop starring at her. My camera roll is full of her pictures
and videos. I never thought I would feel this way about anyone. I always
thought mothers exaggerated their emotions when it came to how they felt about
their new babies.
I am looking forward to raising my little girl and making up
for the missed time with my eldest, I am looking forward to what’s about to